1st Year Annivessary

I really have to admit that I am lazy to update my blog.

My D keep reminding me in updating it but I keep delaying it.

Finally, I am sitting at the study table and typing the new entry.

D is on-call at the hospital as part of their studies today until 9 p.m.

So, it means that I am alone at home now and waiting to pick him up later.

Time flies, me and my D have been together for more than one year now.

We agree to be together on 23 February 2013.

It seems like everything just happen yesterday.

I still can clearly remember my first date with D.

We agree to meet at one of the shopping mall near my university.

I used to drive my motorcycle to the shopping mall but I am asked by D to take a taxi that day.

I ask him the reason and he says it is dangerous for me to drive at night.

D is sweet and thoughtful. (Sure he is flying up to the sky when he saw this post) Haha

Then, we take away food from Pizzahut.

I tell D that I don't feel like eating there.

Long story short, we have dinner inside my hostel room.

Nothing happened. (Don't think dirty ya)

How I meet my D leh? 

No no no, the question should be how I know my D.

I have to start describing it back into year 2010 when I first start blogging.

D is a blogger as well and I used to read his blog from time to time.

I like the way D describes his day and what had happened throughout the day.

So, I email D one day to ask about the problem in setting the blog.

Now, D still think like that is an excuse for me to get his attention..(Haha)

D, I really have problem on it okay.

After that, I stop emailing D until I notice D is moving to here last year.

(D, I never stop reading your blog de horrrr.)

Then, we start emailing each other back.

It closes to CNY that time where I am enjoying my holiday at my home town.

So, I have lots of free time to chat to D through facebook, skype and even phone call at the end.

D refuses to meet me at first even after I am back to my university.

D said he is fed up in meeting with people.

Okay, long story short D still agree to meet me up at the end.

Sometimes, we really do not known what will happen at the end of a relationship. 

I always tell D that we are getting older and older which means that our responsibilities to become someone in the future becomes bigger and bigger.

However, things that we have to do in making good things happen is to trust each other and believe that we can be together until the end.

Be faithful as well, of course!

We were celebrating it at Dome last Saturday.

It is a nice dinner.

The food and the place is nice.

We exchange gifts and take photos together.

It is our second proper date after the first date last year. (haha)

I do enjoy the dinner very much.

Hmmmm, I think I will blog about the dinner on next post. (Hehe)

Its time to go and fetch my D now.

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY, MY D!

(I will save the three words tonight to you when we are going to bed, hehe)

With love,

Kyan

  

Holiday

Okay, such a long time didn't update my blog again.

Busy as usual but able to go for a short holiday with my D last week.

We have bought the tickets as earlier as six months ago.

Basically, this entry gonna about my holiday and the pictures we took at there.

Weeeeeee! All are from the Canon 70D!

Hahaha, feel like promoting the camera.

Really glad that D suggests to buy that model with the lens.

I cannot remember the name of the lens but it is a very good lens to take photo especially portraits.

Here are some of the photos from the trip.

U guys will know the place where we go once u see the photos. Hahaha (Suspense)

Me and my D favorite restaurant there. We had brunch there for our first meal of the day.

Hahaha, we came out late from the hotel as our flight landed around 2.30 a.m. that day itself.

The restaurant is called as "Warung D'Sawah"

Nice view, nice food and fresh air. Really must try there again.

D's dishes. Grilled chicken dishes. Cannot remember the name of the dish lah.

My is a "dulang" set. It have most of the popular dishes there. (Chicken/fish/satay/side dishes)

Hahaha, I am so greedy.

 Okay, here we go. Jeng jeng jeng jeng. Its Bali, Indonesia. Hahaha.

Tanah Lot Temple

Flower inside one of the small ceramic pond there. 

Pura Taman Ayun near Mengwi

Pulina Agro Tourism near Tengalalang

They have the most well known coffee in the world which is "kopi Luwak"

Both of us try it. It tastes sour. We still like the original Bali coffee. Haha.

Sukawati Market

Both of us gone crazy when seeing there got so many drawings.

Sukawati Market

Typical t-shirt hahaha. I got one that written "I LOVE BALI"

LOL

Sukawati Market

Kintamani Volconic Lake

Kintamani Volconic Lake

Beratan Lake Temple

Beratan Lake Temple

Me and my D favorite place to visit. The weather is so nice and the view is so breathtaking.

The only place we really reluctant to leave.

Beratan Lake Temple

Beratan Lake Temple

Beratan Lake Temple

Off course beautiful flowers grow under beautiful weather and temperature.

Beratan Lake Temple

Uluwatu Ancient Temple

The sky is so blue and the sea water as well.

Uluwatu Ancient Temple

I am so happy to have a short trip with my D and I really like the place. Hahaha

Time to plan for the next trip. LOL

Its really good to reward and recharge yourself with a trip after a whole entire year hard works.

Love,

Kyan

Random

Hmmmm, again more than two months I didn't blog anything here.

Suddenly feel like me and my D slowly slowly become inseparable.

Life is so short, we have to appreciate on what we have now.

Especially those who love you and you love.

Do something to make yourself and people around you feel happy and meaningful everyday.

Just be yourself.

Just do it when you know that you will regret one day if you didn't do it.

Again, all these thoughts flooded my mind because of my uncle's death last week.
Okay, time to move on and back to reality. No time to be emotional. Haha

I keep reminding my D about our dream future and I even give it a name.
It is called "New Zealand Dream". Hahaha
Why New Zealand leh?

The main reason is New Zealand had just legalized gay marriage last few months, plus it is the nearest country to Malaysia. (Not near also, at least 10 hours flight!)
Whateverlah, both of feel that there is a possibility for us to get a job there.
As D is trying to get his rotation in New Zealand for 10 weeks and then try to get a housemanship there.

By the time D finishes his MBBS,, I would have finish my study.
Hope everything will go smoothly without much difficulties.
But we are preparing for the worst case as well.
I know no matter how as long as two people are working together for the same goal, everything will turn out right at last, right......

"Jia you + Fighting," (To myself, My D and everyone)
D, thank you for being with me 8 months 7 days although we just have a big fight last few day (Hope it is right ya, Oppsssss HAHA)

Love,

Kyan

Dear horrrrrrr!

Hello!!!!!!!

Such a longgggggggggggggggg time didn't update my blog liao.

Hahaha, hope you guys still remember the existence of this blog.

Don't worry, I am still alive :]

Almost 6 months with my D. (Super happy :))

Lots of things happened between me and my D

Sure got sweet and bitter one.

Okay, let me start with the bitter one first as Chinese always say “先苦后甜”. Hahaha

As usual, both of us are bitchy at certain particular matter which we keep fighting and quarreling at 

But keep hugging and kissing at the end (most of the time it just after a few minutes of silence)

(And most of the time, he will come and hug me first, hehe)

So drama horrrrr.

Yes,both of us are drama.

"Dear, if you are reading this post. Don't laugh or say no inside your heart hor.

It's true hor"

Hmmm, so far quarreling due to different opinions and bitchiness seems like the biggest problem between me and my D. hahaha

But, I would like to thank my dear that always ask me for an honest talk to clear all the mess out.

Those talks lead to the solutions of each problems that we faced.

Sometimes, we can just spend few hours in talking and chatting (face to face) like two bitches. hahaha

Sometimes, me even myself also beh tahan=cannot withstand anymore.

But we should continue practicing it as to overcome all the obstacles.

All the guys out there, no matter you're gay, straight, bi, or transgender, LISTEN!

(Suddenly, so serious de????)

"A relationship can only work when both persons are willing to talk and discuss honestly on every single problems and challenges faced in the relationship" 

(the line from my D)

I agreed, won't you?

Hahaha. Okok, too serious liao, that is just from my point of view.

Yeah, forget from my D's point of view as well.

Finally, reach the sweet parts!

Hmmmmm, I should be thankful that I have lots my sweet moments with my D.

Range from a little little thing like saying good morning every single morning (we always compete on who are going to say it first in the morning, hahaha so childish hor)

to a big big thing like driving all the way up to fetch me back.

Shopping, dinning, cooking, swimming, working and more and more.

Hope those last for forever ya. (crossing my fingers now)

Yeah, longing for the Bali trip on next year 2014!

(We book so early because the tickets from Malaysia Airlines are the cheapest among other airlines, hahaha)

I love you, dear. (okok, enough enough liao)

Dear,

Happy Chinese Valentine’s Day

(Forget it just now, remember it once open the google browser :])

To all you guys, happy Chinese Valentine’s Day!

Love,

Kyan

Love Love Love

First time, I decide the title of the blogpost before I finish writting up the post. haha.

Busy with so many things.

Busy with research on my study and my boyfriend (Opps)

Don't know why I just love to cook for him.

So easy to feed him, he likes everthing that I prepare for him.

"Because I put in my love on it????" Wuahahahaha

(Sorry ya, a bit too much)

Feel so glad that I can meet him in my life.

Just want to pour all my love to him, don't care anymore.

Love and to be loved, only can feel it when you really start loving someone.

Love is not blind, love just make our llife more complete.

I saw a meteor again yesterday.

I also dont know why I always have the luck to notice the meteor since I am together with my boyfriend.

Good sign, can make more wishes then. Hahaha.

Make a wish again, hope me and D can be together forever.

(Note: D is the nick name I give to my boyfriend, it sounds nothing special but just love to call him as )
Forget to mention in prrevious blog.

Normally, I will call him D~~~ (wth longer tone) hahaha, know?know?

 (Ooi Ooi, enough is enough)

Repeating this song again and again when I am writting this post.

Although it is a super old song but just nice to listen to during a quite night.

 

 Title: Tonight I celebrate my love

Love you, D

Love,

Kyan

Back to Normal

Huh???? Sound so wrong for the title. Hahaha

I means back to normal day of my life.

Studying, reading, writing and DATING.

Hahaha, that's becoming a normal routine for me now.

My D visited my hometown on last Saturday and he stay at my house as well.

Feel so happy and D said its like we are back to my home for holiday from Canada.

For your information, both of us are planning to move to Canada where gay marriage is recognized and protected under the law. Hopefully.

My mum kept telling me to treat D well when we reached home. She kept smiling at D as she didn't know what to say. Funny moment. Hahaha

(I think it is because my mum didn't know that D is my boyfriend)

D, sorry ya didn't realize that the air-con is too cold for you that night and cann't hug D. :(

I am so happy that I had my first trip with my D to KL last week although it is short and non official as we went there to settle some stuffs. Hehe.

D, I really enjoy the trip.

Thank you, my lovely D

Love

Kyan

First Time :)

Hmmmmmm........ Such a long time I didn't update my blog.

Sorry. Hahaha.

Waiting for the boyfriend to get his stuffs done and I am using his iPad to update my blog. Hehe.

This is my first time of using an iPad to update it. Hahaha.

Bedsides, this is also my first time come to my boyfriend's 'hometown' and have a look on it. Hahaha

So many first time with the boyfriend, below are the list:  LOL

My first boyfriend and last boyfriend. (Hopefully) hahahaha

(Good memories)

First kiss.

First hug.

Fist holding hands

First dating.

First cooking.

First shopping.

First driving together to visit each hometown.

First having the chance to see a meteor and make wishes. ( not easy hor to have seen the meteor just from the balcony of a apartment ) hahaha

First planning for OUR future.

First planning on how is ours first home gonna looked like.

First.......

First......

First.......

First.......

(Bad memories but good lessons)

First being so worried for some one that I loved.

First crying for someone that I loved.

First having little fights with someone that I loved.

First having arguments with someone that I loved. ( because I am too stingy) hahaha

First experiencing car broke down at night.

Dear, hope there are endless of good first time with you in future

Sure there are bad things gonna happen in future, we can overcome all of them, sure we can dear.

I believe that we can.

Thank you, my dear.😘

Love from,

Kyan

Special Chinese New Year????

U guys may think anything special for my Chinese New Year this year as I mention in the title.

Actually it's nothing special for my Chinese New Year on food, places where I visit to or friends and relatives that I meet up.

It's about someone that is special and important to me now come to "knock" my door.

(I think I'm the one who knock his door first. Hahahaha... ... Whatever)

I do believe when you lose someone that you love, the other one who love you will come just in term of time whether it is one year, two year, three... ....

 He appears exactly at the time of 2 years after I lose my father.

It's so coincident, right?

I do believe it is my fate, is it? ( 缘分-yuan fen)

Hahaha, I think so.

Guys, don't give up the things that u're hoping for with the only condition is you have to work on it.

Grab it as "tight" as u can when it appears. (So blunt)

Understand???

Love

Kyan

Chinese New Year

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

I know its already the sixth day of the new year.

But it's still not that late, right. Hehe... ...

And it's the time of the year again for the prayer of the day when my father passed away.

Officially it steps into the third year without you.

Dad, how are you been there?

We all are fine here.

I knew you're coming back home on Chinese New Year eve as a moth.

HAHAHA... ...

Chinese believe moth is the animal that represent our passed away relatives.

I tried to do the "huat kueh" by myself yesterday night, but it ended up it doesn't look "huat" <rise up properly> at all.

Haiz... ... But good try.

The higher the cake rises up means the more money we are able to earn. HAHAHA... ...

All Ang Pows that I get from my relatives. Big money, big money... ...hehe :]

 

It's the year of snake.

As my chinese zodiac sign is snake as well means it gonna be a super tough year for me.

I need to be extra careful on decision making.

Think twice before any actions are made.

Good luck to myself.

It's gathering, gathering still gathering with my teachers and friends.

Tension up with their achievements. Sign.

  Quite a few of them graduate from Singapore, UK and Japan.

Asking my friend to bring back a DSLR camera from Japan when he comes back next time.

Much much cheaper there.

Guys, any suggestion for the camera?

Hope he is ok. Hehe... ...

Gonna start working like a bull and horse (做牛做马) from next week.

Don't want to think so much now.

Just wanna relax and enjoy my holidays now. Woohooo... ...

Kyan

Mess up [明明就]

Kind of complicated relation with him now.

He starts to sms me out for playing badminton after two months of silence when I confronted to him.

I still can control my feelings on him.

However, he didn't talk much to me since then.

After every matches, I just go off and he didn't even say a single word.

He just mingle around with his friends.

I am like the outsider.

But I still show up whenever he requests for the match. "Stupid, right?"

He just cann't stay alone with me as he will make sure at least one of his friends is attending as well.

Why?

I know he still counts me as his friend but the feeling and atmosphere is still not right yet.

 真的是“剪不断，理还乱！”

New song from Jay Chou:

明明就

演唱：周杰伦

糖果罐里好多颜色
微笑却不甜了
你的某些快乐
在没有我的时刻

中古世纪的城市里
我想就走到这
海鸥不再眷恋大海
可以飞更远

远方传来风笛
我只在意有你的消息
请把为爱收走秘密
而我为你守着回忆

明明就不喜欢牵手
为何却主动把手勾
你的心事太多
我不会说破

明明就他比较温柔
也许他能给你更多
不用抉择
我会自动变朋友

糖果罐里好多颜色
微笑却不甜了
你的某些快乐
在没有我的时刻

中古世纪的城市里
我想就走到这
海鸥不再眷恋大海
可以飞更远

这里的“我”依然是“我”，

这里的“你”依然是“你”，

但， 这里的“他”却是“她”

Merry Christmas :)

Kyan

Reading New Books

Went to the book fair last weekend and had this books.

Retrieve some good words from the book:

爱情不能讨价还价，

有感觉就有感觉， 没有感觉就 始终没感觉，

完全勉强不来，能够培养起来的，

是友情不是爱情。

[欧阳文风]

成长是一条没有回头的路， 只能一直往前走。

我虽已不再是一个追风的少年，也没有在蓝天下奔驰追逐高飞的风筝，

但是我日日夜夜都在追逐一件我长的再大、活的再大，永远都不会放弃的事，

那就是：理想与爱情。

[Antonia Paoliello(张晓东)]

摘自：<<男男自语>>

完全是我所向往的！

还没阅读完， 相信还有更多名言。

还有一本欧阳文风的书等着我，不知为何爱上了他的文笔。

那书是<<同根生>>。

 

下回再谈我对这两本书的读后感。

Kyan

My Ultimate Goal in My Life: Gay Family Values

Wosh, almost one month since last post.

We are in weird situation now.

Both of us feel awkward to meet each other.

Haiz, let it be lah.

My first subscription for a youtube channel.

Such a lovely family.

Who said gay couple cannot have children.

Check out all the videos in the channel.

It tells everything.

I am not paid to promote their channel. haha... ...

Just love their videos.

So real, full of love, love and it still love.

Check it out yo :]

Gay Family Values Youtube Channel

Cheers... ...

Kyan

Goodbye...

《我的歌声里》
词曲：曲婉婷（

没一点点防备
也没有一丝顾虑
你就这样出现在我的世界里
带给我惊喜   " 情不自已 "
可是你偏又这样
在我不知不觉中悄悄的消失
从我的世界里没有音讯剩下的只是回忆
你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里

你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里

还记得我们曾经肩并肩走过那段繁华巷口
尽管你我是陌生人是过路人
但彼此还是感觉到了对方的一个眼神、一个心跳
一种意想不到的快乐
好像是一场梦境  “ 命中注定 ”
你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里

你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里 

世界之大为何我们相遇
难道是缘分、难道是天意

你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里
你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里

你存在我深深的脑海里
我的梦里、我的心里、我的歌声里

 

Nice song and well written lyrics :]

Kyan

Miss U (Day 02)

Guys, wish me luck.

I am gonna ask how he feels on me.

If he is a straight, then that's the end.

Hope I can really pull myself out from him.

I think I really fall hard on him.

I know I am in big trouble now :(

Kyan

Miss U (Day 01)

I am such a crap.

I am really suffering now.

My fonder on you grows wildly since I confronted to you.

I thought I can pull myself out from you then.

But, I feel even worse on it.

I really miss you so much.

Gary, do you know it?

I miss the time be with you.

You make my life happier and much filling.

You are so nice to me and make my existance more meaningful.

Could you hear the voice from my heart?

Kyan

Pre-Convocation Post

Work like a cow last few weeks.

Following a series of online teaching videos that related to my research topic.

Reading, Going classes (some boring university subjects), meeting... ...

Finally, it's my big day - my Convocation day.

Free out some time to post something here as it's already one month I didn't post anything. Haha.

The ceremony is this afternoon.

Quite upset and emo as my father cann't make it and wait until the day.

It"s already two years.

It gets better now.

"Dad, I get the award as I promised to you during my first year study."

Sure you will be very pround of it if you are here.

Gonna go and prepare for the ceremony.

Forget.

Congratulations to ALL my mates and 

 Big Big Thank you to my lecturers, friends and family who do help me alot during my undergraduate Uni life.

Muacks... ...

Cheers,

Kyan

Changes???

I am tougher and more mature after the four year undergraduate university life.

(That's what I thinklah)

Cause a lot of things happen within the four years.

But, feel not much changes on my campus life.

Alone, alone, and still alone

Loneliness hitting me again.

Eat alone.

Study alone.

Shop alone.

Walk alone.

Watching movie alone.

Sleep alone all the night... ...

Much much more things done alone.

Even I am typing this post alone.

Suddenly, I am emo cause after a whole day work and brain storming.

The feeling of loneliness will hit u hardly after u are free.

Agree?

Am I use to it already?

Probably not. It even harder when I am a postgraduate.

All my friends have starting their another life journey.

Anyone? Who are waiting outside for me?

Could u please appear in front of me now?

Kyan

 

New Start... ...

Hi, Hello all guys out there.

Just register to be a postgraduate today.

Sorry for abandon my blog for almost 2 months.

Luckily it is not more than 3 months.

Then, u all might think I die already.

Choi x3 Still ghost month ho.

Busy with my research proposal and so on.

I'm back.

So tired after tidying my room.
Finally, got the scholarship from mu Uni.
Damn 爽， just pay half of the total study fees.
Waiting for my allowances.
Money money come hehehe... ...
Be humble. OkOk

A big thank you to my cousin sister.

Sorry for making you waiting so long this morning.

(So many procedure to go through for the registration + so many people)

Thanks for your help.

Four years ago, it's you.

Today, four year after its still you. (But my father has gone)

THANK YOU, MY LOVELY 大姐。

Cheers... ...

Kyan

Guilty

Sorry, guys.

Didn’t update my blog for a long time liao.

U guys sure feel ‘sien’ that I keep apologizing for not updating my blog.

Ok. I will try to post something at least once a week.

I promise :]

Why I feel guilty leh???

The reason is:

I am eating at a cafe inside my Uni this afternoon and below are the conversation between me and the cashier(Malay girl):

Cashier            : Dik, RM 3.70.

Me                  : Ok. ( Give her RM 5.00)

Cashier            : (Give me back the change RM 1.00)

Me                  : Kak, saya bagi RM 5.00 tadi. ( I know it is just 30 sen more)

Cashier            : Ye ke. Berapa? Lupa dah.

Me                  : RM 5.00!!!

Cashier            : (Give me back RM 0.30 +RM 5.00)

Me                  : =.= (Struggling... ... take it or not take it). Take it.

Then, I get a free meal + RM 1.30 more.

Actually I feel quite guilty then.

So, guys will you take it or give back the extra change to the cashier?

A) Take it             B) Return

Initially, I just wanna get back another 30 sen.

I am not hoping for another 5 ringgit. Haiz… …

Make me feeling guilty now. Huhu… …

Finally, I finish my FYP.

Below are my hard works:

Isometry view

Top view

Side view

 I know I know they are just book. No need to take so many photos right.

My hard works leh.

Probably u may know which university that I am come from. Haha… …

Just give it a guess.

I am still in my uni now cause I am taking an extra course to enhance my skills on design drawing with an engineering software – AutoCAD 2012.

Keep occupying myself with works.

So, I will not think on (desperate for) having a relationship with others. Haha… …

Yup. I unfriend “HIM” from my Facebook friends list after seeking advices from my friend few weeks ago.

But, I will be totally free on August.

Then, how? Intend to get a part time job.

Besides, one of my sister’s friends request me to draw a “Weeding Tree” for her weeding on this coming October recently.

I have drawn the first draft and she has some comments on it.

So, I have to redraw it again.

Hope I can meet what she wants then.

My first drawing project. Haha… …

By the way, do you guys know which website is suitable for friend finding ah?

No handphone applications likes Grindr cause my handphone is just a normal phone.

If it is a smart phone sure I have installed it long time ago. Hehe... ... 

No intention to change hp yet.

Then, I will get wild 0.0

Cheers... ...

Kyan

  

Short Short Holiday

Again, sorry I am just too lazy to update my blog.

I am in Selangor now.

To be specify, in PJ now.

All the way up to here to meet one of my best friends during my high school time.

(Giving you guys hint on which part of the country that I am from. Haha... ...)

He is a guy ^.^

Hold on, don't misunderstand me and start thinking... ...

He is a super straight people.

Just wanna to release my tension from the uni works.

So, having some good food and go to some nice places here.

Jungle tracking with him and one of his best friends at Bukit Gasing.

Fortunately, he is the one who understands me most and he gives me lots of advices.

He is open-minded as well.

Yes, I have coming out to him.

He really make my day. Hehe... ...

:]

Muacks ... ...

Kyan