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Hmmmm, again more than two months I didn't blog anything here.

Suddenly feel like me and my D slowly slowly become inseparable.

Life is so short, we have to appreciate on what we have now.

Especially those who love you and you love.

Do something to make yourself and people around you feel happy and meaningful everyday.

Just be yourself.

Just do it when you know that you will regret one day if you didn't do it.

Again, all these thoughts flooded my mind because of my uncle's death last week.
Okay, time to move on and back to reality. No time to be emotional. Haha

I keep reminding my D about our dream future and I even give it a name.
It is called "New Zealand Dream". Hahaha
Why New Zealand leh?

The main reason is New Zealand had just legalized gay marriage last few months, plus it is the nearest country to Malaysia. (Not near also, at least 10 hours flight!)
Whateverlah, both of feel that there is a possibility for us to get a job there.
As D is trying to get his rotation in New Zealand for 10 weeks and then try to get a housemanship there.

By the time D finishes his MBBS,, I would have finish my study.
Hope everything will go smoothly without much difficulties.
But we are preparing for the worst case as well.
I know no matter how as long as two people are working together for the same goal, everything will turn out right at last, right......

"Jia you + Fighting," (To myself, My D and everyone)
D, thank you for being with me 8 months 7 days although we just have a big fight last few day (Hope it is right ya, Oppsssss HAHA)

Love,

Kyan

Special Chinese New Year????

U guys may think anything special for my Chinese New Year this year as I mention in the title.

Actually it's nothing special for my Chinese New Year on food, places where I visit to or friends and relatives that I meet up.

It's about someone that is special and important to me now come to "knock" my door.

(I think I'm the one who knock his door first. Hahahaha... ... Whatever)

I do believe when you lose someone that you love, the other one who love you will come just in term of time whether it is one year, two year, three... ....

 He appears exactly at the time of 2 years after I lose my father.

It's so coincident, right?

I do believe it is my fate, is it? ( 缘分-yuan fen)

Hahaha, I think so.

Guys, don't give up the things that u're hoping for with the only condition is you have to work on it.

Grab it as "tight" as u can when it appears. (So blunt)

Understand???

Love

Kyan

Guilty

Sorry, guys.

Didn’t update my blog for a long time liao.

U guys sure feel ‘sien’ that I keep apologizing for not updating my blog.

Ok. I will try to post something at least once a week.

I promise :]

Why I feel guilty leh???

The reason is:

I am eating at a cafe inside my Uni this afternoon and below are the conversation between me and the cashier(Malay girl):

Cashier            : Dik, RM 3.70.

Me                  : Ok. ( Give her RM 5.00)

Cashier            : (Give me back the change RM 1.00)

Me                  : Kak, saya bagi RM 5.00 tadi. ( I know it is just 30 sen more)

Cashier            : Ye ke. Berapa? Lupa dah.

Me                  : RM 5.00!!!

Cashier            : (Give me back RM 0.30 +RM 5.00)

Me                  : =.= (Struggling... ... take it or not take it). Take it.

Then, I get a free meal + RM 1.30 more.

Actually I feel quite guilty then.

So, guys will you take it or give back the extra change to the cashier?

A) Take it             B) Return

Initially, I just wanna get back another 30 sen.

I am not hoping for another 5 ringgit. Haiz… …

Make me feeling guilty now. Huhu… …

Finally, I finish my FYP.

Below are my hard works:

Isometry view

Top view

Side view

 I know I know they are just book. No need to take so many photos right.

My hard works leh.

Probably u may know which university that I am come from. Haha… …

Just give it a guess.

I am still in my uni now cause I am taking an extra course to enhance my skills on design drawing with an engineering software – AutoCAD 2012.

Keep occupying myself with works.

So, I will not think on (desperate for) having a relationship with others. Haha… …

Yup. I unfriend “HIM” from my Facebook friends list after seeking advices from my friend few weeks ago.

But, I will be totally free on August.

Then, how? Intend to get a part time job.

Besides, one of my sister’s friends request me to draw a “Weeding Tree” for her weeding on this coming October recently.

I have drawn the first draft and she has some comments on it.

So, I have to redraw it again.

Hope I can meet what she wants then.

My first drawing project. Haha… …

By the way, do you guys know which website is suitable for friend finding ah?

No handphone applications likes Grindr cause my handphone is just a normal phone.

If it is a smart phone sure I have installed it long time ago. Hehe... ... 

No intention to change hp yet.

Then, I will get wild 0.0

Cheers... ...

Kyan

  

Is It True?

爱，真的要拥有才能快乐吗？

默默得在一旁守候你所爱的人，

默默得怀念你曾经所拥有过他的爱，

有时，也是一种幸福。

Intresting... ...

Cheers... ...

Kyan

 

Loneliness?

I was just too lazy and the mood was not with me in writing any post last week.

Besides, I will be really busy with my final year project this week.

Since I am quite free last two weeks, I am back to my aunt’s house for a short stay during the weekend.

My aunt’s house is quite near to my university.

In short, I am with my aunt and cousins all the time and I really enjoy the time being with them.

They treat me like their own son and like their younger brother.

However, I just have a feeling that something is missing and incomplete.

I am hoping that my “special someone” is beside me and it keeps me thinking of HIM.

Someone that I can share my joyous moment with.

Someone that I can share my feelings with.

Someone that I can share my thoughts with.

Someone that can comfort me during the hardest time.

Guys, is it loneliness?

Yup, I am so desperate now. Haha… …

Some of you may know who HIM is as I have mentioned HIM in my older post.

The desire on asking HIM about his sexuality becomes stronger these few days.

But I am the one who promise not to disturb him anymore in future after I come out to HIM and tell him the truth that I like HIM.

How dare I am.

Should I write a message to HIM and tell HIM what’s my feelings now?

Asking HIM what’s your preference?

Are you into me?

 

Below are some parts of the last chatting between me and HIM on facebook:

HIM    : eer, no feeling towards gals...

              reli a sad case @@

ME      :  Got feeling to u lah. Haha. Send u a link

               http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FrIB5Ojbqns.

               This is hw Singapore well accept to LGBT people. Let me know yours feeling.

HIM    :  eer

  dunno why

  de video is good

  but sumtime dis kind of video

              misleading

              means sometime ppl who are not LGBT who watch dis video, will get infected

  get wat i meant?

ME    :  U mean those who are straight will turn to gay?

HIM  :  Ya

ME    :  Don't know, maybe. Hope u become gay as well. Haha.

            Because I hv feeling to u for the time beeing. Seem I am too much to u, right!!!

            Don't curse me at the back.

HIM  :  wont

i understand ur feeling

last time in (XXX) u already not straight de a ?

hw come i din realize

            haha

 

Luckily, he didn’t unfriend me from the facebook after the chat.

I am just afraid that he will be annoyed when I try to chat with him on the topic again.

I am not afraid that he is a straight as I know the argument that nobody can change ones’ sexual preference as it comes in naturally. 

Then, I will let my feeling on him gone.

Note: I suppose to post this on last week but I am sick due to the skin allergy. Still on the recovery process as it is quite serious. I will post the photo on the part of my body which is attacked by the skin disease in future. It is disgusting. Haha… …

Cheers… …

Kyan   

Love 2

Remember my 'love one' that I mentioned before.

I miss him again :(

His recent posts on fb make me confuse about his sexuality.

Should I ask him?

But, I cann't do that cause I promised not to disturb him anymore.
The reason is I told him before that I like him.
Then, he didn't reply me anymore cause he is a straight???
Me, crazy right!

What should I do?

I donn't have the courage to chat with him on fb anymore. Haiz......

Help! Help! Help!

Love

Suddenly, I miss him so.............. much :(

Quite regret on telling him the truth that I like him so much.
Now, don't even know whether we still can be friend or not cause he try to avoid from me. Haiz.......

Just keep myself busy with work in order to forget those unhappy events.
Must cheer up.

Cheers...............

Freedom To Love

Just come across a video make by a PLU couple shares by my friend on fb. Damn admire them. When my love will come and knock my door? Haiz......

It is always easier said than done. People always say they have no discrimination on LGBT people but they will try to avoid them when they come across them. When will the society be open minded? Think..... Think.......

Cheers............