Depression

Feel like I have nothing that really belongs to me.

Wallet, Clothes, Handphone – Inherit from my brother

Analog Watch – RM 10 (gift from my brother)

Digital Watch – Priceless (From my Uncle “garang guni store”, hahaha… …)

Do I spell the word “garang guni” right?

I know that I come from a middle income family and I cannot hope much from my family.

Now, my family is solely supported by my brother.

Sometimes, it really depressed me when I notice others are having branded handphone, watch, wallet and etc.

Perasan pulak. 

They are lucky to have a family with good financial background.

Please appreciate it!!!  That is what I always remind my friend who is a “大少爷-Young Master”

Besides, is it that is the reason why I always work so hard in order to gain what I want?

I think so, those motivate me to work harder and harder in order to change my life.

Am I realistic?

I donn’t know.

I just know that my life only can become better if I work hard.

Is it true?

I went to visit my uncle who lives in an old folk home yesterday.

It already becomes a routine for me and my brother to pay him a visit when one of us is free.

It is our responsibility to take care of him after my father’s death.

He didn’t have any relatives except me and my family.

He is alone.

He didn’t marry.

Again, the situation makes me feel depression.

Now, it comes to a sensitive question for all PLUs.

Am I going to be like him in future?

Is it that is the reason why I always work so hard in order to avoid the above situation?

Again, I donn’t know.

However, there is one thing that I am so sure is all the above link to a word “MONEY”

Maybe, that is the only thing that gives me the motivation.

Haiz… …

Am I thinking too much?

It is a truth that I am much stronger, particular and sensitive than before after the event struck me.

Is it a good thing?

It already passes one year.

Time can heal everything.

Besides, I donn't know why the pictures below always give me the clear direction on what I want when I am lost.

Note: I apologize if u guys feel stress and depressed after reading my post.

Cheers… …

Kyan