Miss U (Day 01)

I am such a crap.

I am really suffering now.

My fonder on you grows wildly since I confronted to you.

I thought I can pull myself out from you then.

But, I feel even worse on it.

I really miss you so much.

Gary, do you know it?

I miss the time be with you.

You make my life happier and much filling.

You are so nice to me and make my existance more meaningful.

Could you hear the voice from my heart?

Kyan

Pre-Convocation Post

Work like a cow last few weeks.

Following a series of online teaching videos that related to my research topic.

Reading, Going classes (some boring university subjects), meeting... ...

Finally, it's my big day - my Convocation day.

Free out some time to post something here as it's already one month I didn't post anything. Haha.

The ceremony is this afternoon.

Quite upset and emo as my father cann't make it and wait until the day.

It"s already two years.

It gets better now.

"Dad, I get the award as I promised to you during my first year study."

Sure you will be very pround of it if you are here.

Gonna go and prepare for the ceremony.

Forget.

Congratulations to ALL my mates and 

 Big Big Thank you to my lecturers, friends and family who do help me alot during my undergraduate Uni life.

Muacks... ...

Cheers,

Kyan

Changes???

I am tougher and more mature after the four year undergraduate university life.

(That's what I thinklah)

Cause a lot of things happen within the four years.

But, feel not much changes on my campus life.

Alone, alone, and still alone

Loneliness hitting me again.

Eat alone.

Study alone.

Shop alone.

Walk alone.

Watching movie alone.

Sleep alone all the night... ...

Much much more things done alone.

Even I am typing this post alone.

Suddenly, I am emo cause after a whole day work and brain storming.

The feeling of loneliness will hit u hardly after u are free.

Agree?

Am I use to it already?

Probably not. It even harder when I am a postgraduate.

All my friends have starting their another life journey.

Anyone? Who are waiting outside for me?

Could u please appear in front of me now?

Kyan

 

New Start... ...

Hi, Hello all guys out there.

Just register to be a postgraduate today.

Sorry for abandon my blog for almost 2 months.

Luckily it is not more than 3 months.

Then, u all might think I die already.

Choi x3 Still ghost month ho.

Busy with my research proposal and so on.

I'm back.

So tired after tidying my room.
Finally, got the scholarship from mu Uni.
Damn 爽， just pay half of the total study fees.
Waiting for my allowances.
Money money come hehehe... ...
Be humble. OkOk

A big thank you to my cousin sister.

Sorry for making you waiting so long this morning.

(So many procedure to go through for the registration + so many people)

Thanks for your help.

Four years ago, it's you.

Today, four year after its still you. (But my father has gone)

THANK YOU, MY LOVELY 大姐。

Cheers... ...

Kyan

Guilty

Sorry, guys.

Didn’t update my blog for a long time liao.

U guys sure feel ‘sien’ that I keep apologizing for not updating my blog.

Ok. I will try to post something at least once a week.

I promise :]

Why I feel guilty leh???

The reason is:

I am eating at a cafe inside my Uni this afternoon and below are the conversation between me and the cashier(Malay girl):

Cashier            : Dik, RM 3.70.

Me                  : Ok. ( Give her RM 5.00)

Cashier            : (Give me back the change RM 1.00)

Me                  : Kak, saya bagi RM 5.00 tadi. ( I know it is just 30 sen more)

Cashier            : Ye ke. Berapa? Lupa dah.

Me                  : RM 5.00!!!

Cashier            : (Give me back RM 0.30 +RM 5.00)

Me                  : =.= (Struggling... ... take it or not take it). Take it.

Then, I get a free meal + RM 1.30 more.

Actually I feel quite guilty then.

So, guys will you take it or give back the extra change to the cashier?

A) Take it             B) Return

Initially, I just wanna get back another 30 sen.

I am not hoping for another 5 ringgit. Haiz… …

Make me feeling guilty now. Huhu… …

Finally, I finish my FYP.

Below are my hard works:

Isometry view

Top view

Side view

 I know I know they are just book. No need to take so many photos right.

My hard works leh.

Probably u may know which university that I am come from. Haha… …

Just give it a guess.

I am still in my uni now cause I am taking an extra course to enhance my skills on design drawing with an engineering software – AutoCAD 2012.

Keep occupying myself with works.

So, I will not think on (desperate for) having a relationship with others. Haha… …

Yup. I unfriend “HIM” from my Facebook friends list after seeking advices from my friend few weeks ago.

But, I will be totally free on August.

Then, how? Intend to get a part time job.

Besides, one of my sister’s friends request me to draw a “Weeding Tree” for her weeding on this coming October recently.

I have drawn the first draft and she has some comments on it.

So, I have to redraw it again.

Hope I can meet what she wants then.

My first drawing project. Haha… …

By the way, do you guys know which website is suitable for friend finding ah?

No handphone applications likes Grindr cause my handphone is just a normal phone.

If it is a smart phone sure I have installed it long time ago. Hehe... ... 

No intention to change hp yet.

Then, I will get wild 0.0

Cheers... ...

Kyan

  

Short Short Holiday

Again, sorry I am just too lazy to update my blog.

I am in Selangor now.

To be specify, in PJ now.

All the way up to here to meet one of my best friends during my high school time.

(Giving you guys hint on which part of the country that I am from. Haha... ...)

He is a guy ^.^

Hold on, don't misunderstand me and start thinking... ...

He is a super straight people.

Just wanna to release my tension from the uni works.

So, having some good food and go to some nice places here.

Jungle tracking with him and one of his best friends at Bukit Gasing.

Fortunately, he is the one who understands me most and he gives me lots of advices.

He is open-minded as well.

Yes, I have coming out to him.

He really make my day. Hehe... ...

:]

Muacks ... ...

Kyan

 

 

Long Long Time

It gonna be a long post.

Again, sorry for leaving my blog sooooo long without any notification.  Hehe… …

I am busy with my FYP.

Finally, it almost comes to an end and will hand it in this week.

Not completely finish yet because I still need to summarize out and publish it in journal.

It is better to have some published works now as I am going to continue my study on PHD!

Then, all the papers can help to support and promote me during the research.

YUP, YES… I am going to study PHD!

Already make up my mind, need to prepare myself and struggle in study for another 3 years. (Nak susah-susah dahulu, senang kemudian) just my personal point of view lah.

Both mentally and physically.

Sound like going for war. HAHAHA… …

Ok, next topic. I am that boring actually. No much life.

I think it will be my first and last time to have Japanese food buffet in that particular restaurant.

The reason is it is so expansive, RM 70 per person!!!0.0

The food is just better than average.

It is still too expensive for me.

It is a gathering with my coursemates and seniors.

I attend it because this is the last time to gather liao.

Besides, I am upset by one of my friends recently.

He is the one who first I came out to.

He is the first who I let him know my blog.

Whatever, I just wanna post it right now.

I donn’t care whether he comes across this post or not.  (Already in a bitch mode)

Currently, he tries to avoid and run away from me because of some comments.

“Are you in a relationship with him?”

“Where is your boyfriend?”

I am a monster to him now cause he said he is afraid of me.

He said I become so brave now and may do something on him.

OMG!!!

Am I wrong to be honest to someone that I can trust to?

I donn’t know.

Maybe I am trying to share too many things with him likes I will discuss some interesting posts from you guys with him, share the books that I had read recently and gives my opinions on some gay topics.

Sorry, maybe it is too much for a super straight people.

Seems like those are the reasons why he misunderstands me that I am interested on him.

I don’t have any PLU friends in real life.

My friend, please understand it.

So sad, the friendship is just too weak to overcome all these.

Sorry, friend. You are still my BFF.

Haiz, no friend can share my happiness and sadness anymore liao.

Wanna go for travelling after all this.

BUT no “kaki”.

Any volunteer who are free on this coming August.

I am serious.

Nice commercial.

Hope can boarded it one day.

A visit of the Airbus A380 demonstrator aircraft

 

Cheers… …

Kyan